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I am very glad that this is the last blog post ! I loved doing it , don't get me wrong but it is hard to keep up . I don't know if I will continue to use blogger but I know I will go back and read my blog post. Maybe I will keep writing . It's a good stress reliver or note taker. I do like writting in it. No I did not you could make money blogging but that seems like a lot of fun , I like to do it for fun . I learned that keeping a blog makes you more organized because you keep all your stuff on there. I really enjoyed doing this . 

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I don't think I have ever received a bad Christmas gift. I mean sure I got lots of things I didn't like but nothing horrible. Well one time my sister gave me something that I gave her the previous year. Which I just laughed at . The best Christmas gift I ever got was probably my new tv. I like watching Netflix so it was perfect because it's huge. I love Christmas . 

28!

I feel as if Scout sees the world in a more mature view. She is growing up into a young women. Realizing that the world is not just black and grey. There are bad people in the world. She has a growing stage in her life.

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   The deffention of justice to me is having an equal right. You have the same right as each person standing next to you. It does not matter what color you are. You are treated with respect and given a fair fight. I feel as if racism is taking over the whole "justice" word. More and more crimes are happening each day. The world is becoming a crazy place.

  I think to Kill A Mocking Bird shows an unfair justice trial. If you have evidence that prices your not guilty or guilty, it should determine your punishment. Not your race or ethnic background. I feel we do not know what really goes on in the justice system. I always thought we have had a soild system. These past four years have been a hard part in the justice system. We as Americans are failing at the system.

     I know what we did as Americans was wrong to the African Americans but we are sorry. Just because Aferican Americans commit more crime then whites does not mean that we hate Aferican Americans. Same thing the other way around. Justice is inocint until proven guilty. Not color proves you guilty. Many people have committed horrible crimes. It's society. I feel as if I am unsure about the whole thing, to be honest. 

26'' baby

Since his journal is a free write, I will write some of my favorite qoutes I enjoy. I want to look back at these when I am older and see if I still can relate to them.

1."Hate the sin , not the sinner. "

2. " Some days you just have to create your own sunshine."

3. "A friend is one who overlooks your broken fence and admires the flowers in your garden "

4. " There will come a time when you believe everything is finished. That will be the beginning"

5."Learn to love your inner minsters "

6."Successful people are not gifted; they just work hard, then succeed on purpose "

7. "When the winds of change blow. Some people build walls and others build windmills."

8."Rhrough kindness around like confetti "

25?!?!?!?!?!?!

I think there are so many themes in this book. It is incredible! One of them is not to take your family for advantage because they can be gone so quick. Also a really big one to me is live your childhood. A lot of kids try to grow up too fast. Ishmeal is teaching us that his was taking away. Why push that away from you? Appricate the little things in life and live everyday to the fullest. 

24.

 I really do not care what we read next. I want something that I will enjoy. Also I want so,etching siffernt. Something I usually would not read. 

23 dooooooooooe

I don't know of this bag includes my clothes or not but if it does not , I would bring a couple of things with me. I would bring a camera because I would want to take lots of pictures of everyone and everything. I would also bring a dictionary for their language. The reason I would bring this is because I would want to know what they are saying to me or what to say them. I have went on many missions trips in my years and I always bring my bible. Even if this is not a mission trip , I would bring my bible. I would bring this to spread hope around. Let the people know they are not alone. I would also bring a journal. I would bring this because I would want the people I meet to write something to me or me write things down I see. I think that would be amazing trip to go there ! Ebola or not. 

$22. Civil war

The Sierra Leone civil war was very differnt the United States civil war. We had more deaths then the Sierra Leone war. I feel like the Sierra Leone war was much more intense. The Sierra Leone war had children involed. I feel like that's why I think it was worse. Also the United States fought away from cilvians while Sierra Leon war was right in the streets of it. Both wars were caused from lack of government and they are both sad. It is sad that the Sierra Leon war is not recognized as much as the United States is. 

21 . Shoppppoping .

Yesterday was the first day I slept in. I haven't slept in since summer. I slept in until ten o'clock ,which was amazing. Then I drove to home from Fort Wayne. I then went out to eat with my Aunt at Texas Road House and then went shopping all day. I spent way too much money. I bought these really cute leather boots though. I also went and got my nails done then I went and saw my dad. My day was very productive but I did not anything I planned on doing.

20 Freee writeeeee

I'm just going to start to this blog off with saying I am in my bathtub taking a bubble bath , listing to Beyoncé , and drinking grape juice out of my mom's wine glass. Pretending I'm an adult drinking real wine haha. This is a free write so I am going to make a list of characteristics I want in my future husband. It's has been on my to do list so might as well kill two birds with one stone.

1. Has to treat their mom good .

2. He has to be willing to try new things.

3. Faithful , obviously .

4. Treat me like a queen.

5. Good listener, because I talk a lot or at least act like there listing.

6. Has AMBITION !

7. Doesn't care if I don't shave for 3 weeks or 3 months....

8. Knows when they need to go get ice cream when I'm sad.

9. Has a wild side.

10. They have to be mature but they have to be able to let loose also.

11. Let's me pick the radio station when we drive.

12. He has to be manly.

13. Has a good positive attitude 3/4s of the time.

14. Likes to go on dates but also likes to stay home on a Friday night.

15. Protective 

16. Loves to cuddle.

17. Will dance in the rain with me

18. Wants to have babies.

19 Does not give up when things get rough.

20. He is willing to work hard , for whatever.

21. He has to be honest.

22. Sensitive but not too sensitive because I don't want a cry baby.

23. Will spend hours shopping with me, but he just holds my bags.

24. Knows how to whip up a good steak .

25. Romantic , yes love the little corny stuff. 

26.makes me laugh

27. Loves me at my worst 

28. Cheers me up

29. Put others before him 

30.  Rubs my feet

19 doooeeee

The documentary helped me a lot. At first I asked a lot of questions and got confused at every little thing. Then after the movie it showed me how the war got started. I was confused about how a group of people could just take over a country. The movie showed me more about the diamond company and how the governs was not that strong. I feel like I understand the story more from watching it.

Peace not war 18 $$

I think I realized war was a real thing when I was in my freshmen year. I started watching Army Wife's on Netflix. I know that sounds stupid but I got the concept of war. I would always here about it but never really notice what it was. Then it really hit me when I read the book Night. I never realized how cruel people could be. You don't get to see or really learn a lot about it in a small community. So when I read more and more about it, it shocks me. I have it lucky. We all do .

17!

If I wanted to be a news person, I would go somewhere where there is a beach and it is hot. I would go to a safe country. So I could report the news and then be on vacation at the same time. Then again I would want to go somewhere scary just have the thrill and be one of those famous news people that gets kidnapped. I would get saved and then become famous. I think overall I would go to Africa. 

1.6.16.16.16.16

 I have a lot of mixed emotions to this book. I also have one main reaction to this book. My main reaction is that I am in shock. I did realize that things like this happen in the world. It really interest me and makes me want to read more and more. My main emotion about about this book is sadness. I feel bad for all those people. They were so strong and had faith.

15.

My gut reaction to this video is mad . Then I really think about it and it is true, but the generation before us is responsible for that because there the ones who raised us. Our generation is bad but instead of people complaining about it why don't we change it. I just feel like society is changing and we need to learn how to deal with it. The world changes everyday and we can't do anything about that. Each generation has some crazy people in it. Ours just has a lot. We have lots of learning to do. 

14...

A bestfriend is an amazing gift. I have had the same bestfriend since 5th grade. Her name is Sydney Longenberger. The first time we met was when in Mrs.Henry's room. I always seen her in elementary school but never talked to her. Sydney was sitting next to me when our teacher walked in with a huge blood stain on her butt. Us being stupid laughed so hard together. Then after that we automatically started talking and spending the night at each other's house. At that time in 5th grade both our parents where getting divorced . We both lived with our moms who always took care of us. The next ironic thing we went together was that both our dad's went to jail . They were jail mates with each other. We went through a lot of things together during that year and then after that we spent everyday together. She is my bestfriend and I go crazy without talking or seeing her more then two days. We have been through a lot together.

13............

 I have done a lot of school projects in my time. I really enjoy them. I actually love them. My favorite class projects are the ones that I do when I was little and open them up later when I'm older. My most favorite one was when I had to plan a wedding. We had to go into deep detail about the wedding. I really enjoyed planning things and then presenting it. I am a very hands on person. Also I just did a big project recently called the fast of Bluffton. It was a lot of hard work but I enjoyed it . 

#12

I act like I have a lot of confidence but sometimes I have none at all. I get confused about all of that. I am sometimes self conscious but I do not know if that has anything to do with confidence. People always tell me they wish they had confidence like me. So maybe I am confident. The one time where I am the most confident is when someone says I look good. Also if people laugh at what I say. Another thing that really makes me confident is when I feel pretty. I need to work on my inner confidence. 

#11 wakakakakakaka

The Bluffton street fair is huge big fair. It is an annual thing every year. Everyone comes to it. You basically see the gross people of Bluffton. I mean it is fun and nice but it brings out the ratchets. #sorrynotsorry. Anyways it is the biggest thing for Bluffton . There is rides,food,games and many more.

 The first thing I am going to talk about is the rides. You would think a fair would not have big rides but the Bluffton street fair actually has good rides. There are kitty rides for little kids. Then there are big rides for teenagers or pre-teens. Some of the rides are scary because they are old or you think the carnies would not set them up right. The carnies are really weird too. There are some that are really nice , then there are some who are mean. There is also a big red tent with advertisement and free things. I love the free things.

 My favorite part of street fair are the games. You spend say more money on the games then what it is worth. Like you will pay 10 dollars just to win a small stuffed animal. It is pointless but the joy you get when you win it is the best. Also street fair has the best most greasy food ever. You gain a lot of food. I love street fair . 

#10 wahahahahahahahahah

If I could get rid of any animal in the world it would be spiders. There are lots of reasons why I would get rid of them. One reason why I would get rid of them is because they scare me. I am scared of them because I do not want to get bit by one and die. Another reason why I want to get rid of them is because they look gross. I would actually get rid of lots of animals. I am not a big animal person.

#9

 If I  could change any physical part of my body with someone else in this room would be my weight. I know that sounds bad but if I could I would. I still love myself no matter what but I always wanted to know what it is like being skinny. Not supper skinny because I do not like that.I want t have curves still. Like Shainas body, I would trade her weight for mine. I feel like I would not be the same person. I'm just a natural big gal but I am working on slimming down. Either way I still get the guys. Haha just kidding just kidding.

  If I had to choose something else to change with someone, it would be skin color. I would change Dwayne's skin color for mine. I would not want to be dark though. I would just add a couple drops to my ton so I can be mixed. White is boring. Also I could wear weaves which I think it would be legit to get new hair every three months or so. I am happy with who I am though. 

#8 ...........

Everyone has a different opinion on whether they want their kids to grow up in a small town or a big city. There are pros and cons to each side. My whole life I have grown up in a small city. Which I am very thankful for. Sometimes I wish I grew up in a big city just to experience that. Everyone says they hate Bluffton, that everyone knows everyone and blah blah. For me I love growing up in Bluffton. As a small community, everyone pulls together when it is needed. Sure we have problems but I would not want to grow up anywhere else.

   Of course I want to get out of Bluffton just to experience new things but if I ever had kids I would want them to be raised in Bluffton or a town like Bluffton. The first reason why I would choose a small town is because the schools are smaller. I like small classes where the teacher is able to help the students. If you go to a big city most teachers do not have time for every student. If I went to a bigger school I would probably struggle a lot more in school. My other reason for growing up in a small town is that it is much more safer. Sure there is crime everywhere you go but I feel more protected in Bluffton then I do in Fort Wayne or Indy. My last reason is what I mentioned before. As a small community we come together when needed. For example, Mr.Baker and Mr.Thompson. Our whole community is coming together to raise money and do great things. In a big city I do not think you would get that much of that there. 

  So my theory on life about this is that once I graduate high school and then I go to college in a big city. That way I can experience the feel of a bigger city. If I ever have kids I will settle down and move to smaller city or come back here. I like to experience new and wild things but I want my kids to have the same happy, safe,and good childhood like I had. I feel like my kids would be gang bangers or something if I raised them in a big city. My mom came from Detroit to give me a better life and I am so thankful she did. I love growing up in a small city.

#7 lalaala

 I feel like when someone describes their self , they tell everyone all the postive things about their self. For me I tell both. I want people to know my flaws because that is what makes most of me. I am flawed up but I am also flawless at the same time. I sometimes do not know what to think of myself so I am sure this blog is going to bounce all over. So sorry in advance.

 First off I am still learning to love myself. I don't know how to love myself sometimes. I think that is just me overthinking though. I am trying though. I also have a big personality but I am so sensitive. I don't have much confidence either which is weird because everyone thinks I do. I have the complete opposite. I hate my body but learning to love it and get healthy. I know I know this sound like a pity party but do not feel bad because all these flaws make me something. They also make me stronger each day. 

I have lots of positive good things in my life also. I have the most supportive family and friends ever. Anything I do there always cheering me on to do better or not to give up. They bring me up when I am down which sometimes can be a lot. My mom is my best friend in the whole world. I love my mom so much it's crazy. My biggest fear is loosing my mom. I think that is everyone's big fear in life. Another random fact is I love being around people. I love hearing peoples' stories and how they have overcame their own struggles. I love big crowds some days then other days I would rather be at home with my dog, reading a book or watching Netflix and eating Chinese food. I also love school . I want to become a probation officer but deep down I know I can achieve higher . This is just a little about me. The rest is mystery. 

#6 Mnhh...

I never really thought about what I bring to the school each day. I think I bring leadership to the school. If I see something I have to do, I automatically do it. I take charge if nobody else is. I wish I could bring more to the school. I think I also bring good vides into the school. Most days out of the week I am happy and ready to go. I am not the best person but I try my best. I want to bring more kindness into the school . Also work on helping other people through school problems or even social problems. Were Bluffton strong and I want to help everyone I can out. 

#5- Sick Life

Everyone gets sick sometime in their life time. Im a big baby and think I am sick all the time. Even if my throat hurts a little , i yell for my mom and tell her im dying. Thank the lord I have an amazing mom to take care of me when I am sick. Sometimes i fake being sick just so my mom will take care of me. Perks of being the favorite child. When i do get sick though, like really sick, it is awful.

Last year at this time I would have to go to the doctors in Indy every Friday to get treated. My mom was the only one by my side everytime. She would hold my hand and rub my head. She made me feel safe while I was there. I remember the very last time I went to the doctors at Riley for surgery. My mom stayed with me in the hospital the whole week and slept in a little chair. Then when I got home after that week, my mom took two weeks off of work for me and got me slushies everyday and bought me redbox movies everyday. It was the worst but the best two weeks ever.

I wrote about about that experience because that was the most recent one. I learned after that experience that my mom really is the best. That I when I have kids , I want to treat my kids how my mom treats me. Also that when my mom needs me when she gets old, I will never put her in a nursing home because I will remember all the times she took care of me. It's ironic because I have a cold as I am writing about being sick. Plus my mom just made me chicken noodle soup with sprite. I am lucky to have someone take care of me and have an amazing mom to go out of her to try to make me feel better. Loveeee my mamma dukes so muchhhh. <3

#4 - what's your name ???

  Giving a person a name is probably one of the most precious thing a person can experience.  You will always be called that or have something to do with that. A name is one of the things that makes you unique from everyone else. I am blessed that my parents gave me a unique name. I feel bad for some people whose parents named them a basic name or a ugly name. Whenever I have kids I want them to have very unique names. I have met guys named Dalton but I have yet to meet a girl name Dalton. I love when girls have guys names but not when guys have girls names.

 My first name came from the famous movie , Roadhouse. My dad thought the name was very unique and loved how he played the role in that movie. It sounds dumb but I love my name. Also I researched and found that Dalton was the number one baby name in 1999. I was born in 1998 so it makes sense. I have all sisters and I was my parents last baby so my dad got to chose my name. Part of me thinks he wanted a boy so the closest thing he could get from me is having a boys name. 

Sometimes I don't like having a boy name because when someone hears my name , they automatically think a boy. Like if I get a new friend and they ask their  parents "can dalton stay?", they say no at first because they think I am a boy. Then I also have the pros where everyone says the name is unique for a girl. I think the name Dalton fits me so good. It's a calm name but it is also a bammmm name. My middle name is Paige, which my sister just picked that because she liked it. My name flows together so well. Dalton Paige Heron .👽👽👽👽👽

 

Blog #3

 My favorite Robin Williams movie is Jumanji. The reason why I like this movie so much because I always watched it when I was young. Also it is one of those movies you can watch when you are older and still like it. I loved watching that movie on a rainy day when I was little. I don't think there is a jumanji 2 , but I wish there was. 🙈🙉🙉

Blog #2 to my kids

 If I could ensure  one thing my child would experience that I have experienced in life is being heartbroken. I think being heartbroken is probably one of the worst things to go through as a life experience . Especially your first heartbreak. Well I have only had one so I don't really know which one is the worst. I'm sure they all suck. Feelings suck in general. Also being heartbroken is also one of the best things to go through in life. Everyone goes through it life. It just depends how you take it.

I was dating this guy for a year and I surrounded my whole life around him. I chose him over my family and friends. My happiness depended on him. My taught me to be independent but that faded away quickly. I think your first love is always the hardest just because you don't know what to except and you just have this one person who is always there for you. Anyways I lost myself loving him. I didn't know who I was or anything. Then we broke up and I was in pieces. It's been three months and I am still sad but I have also learned so much in the past three months that I am glad I experienced heart brake.

I learned many lessons from being heartbroken is being lonely is okay. Everyone goes through a lonely stage in life. Plus I know I'm a teenager and I have lots of emotions but why am I lonely when I have an amazing family and friends. I mean it isn't the same but you have to open your eyes and realize that they are going to be the ones their for you when you do go through hard times like this. Another thing I learned over this heartbreak is that I am a strong independent girl that I don't not need no guy to make me happy. I need to find happiness in myself not other people. When you make yourself happy plus someone else makes you happy , that's a bonus but making yourself happy by yourself is the key. I also learned that heartbreaks cost you a lot of money. I mean Eddys ice cream isn't cheap. I will provide my kids with all the ice cream they need. I've learned a lot of the past couple months and I am still learning. This is major maturing process and I want my kids to go through this so they can be strong independent kids. I want them to feel pain because pain demands to be felt. Pain is also a good thing because you appreciate the happiness .

#1 - What would you do?

 Have you ever seen or heard about the movie Dr.DoLittle ? Where the guy is a vet and can talk to the animals. I sometimes wonder if some people really can or if they are just crazy. I know people say they can talk to animals in today's society but I honestly do not think it is true.I just recently learned that animals by their own group have their own language which I think is amazing. I also wonder if talking to animals would be a pro or con. If I had the chance of communicating with animals , it would be crazy. I would not know what to do!

I think I would be scared to communicate with animals because they would probably say a lot of things I do not want to hear. I would be sad if an animal came and told me that his or her owner was hurting them. Also if the animal was in the pound and wanted saved. They would just tell me and I would feel bad. Then my whole house would smell gross because I have a million animals because I feel bad for them.  Also I am pretty sure dogs or animals can sense ghosts and they would tell me. If there is a ghost around , I don't want to know. I consider all these cons of me communicating with animals.

Now these are my cons of communicating with animals. I think I would gain a lot of knowledge because the animals would tell me all the secrets of surviving. So basically I would live in the wild because the animals would help me survive. I think I would live with lions in Africa.  Also I always wanted to hear what the animals think of us humans. Another pro is animals see a lot more then humans so if I could communicate with them I would go to an animal that saw a crime and I would go arrest the person because I have an eye witness. I would legit be the best detective ever. Also my dog , Rocky, is my best friend. I tell him everything so he could talk back and give me advice. That would be legit too. Overall, I have more pros then cons.